I spent the better part of about 5 years thinking that my true love was the person that I couldn't be with. This was the person that could make me weak in the knee's just by looking at me, or give me major butterflies in the stomach when we kissed. When our relationship ended horribly, I was beyond devasted. I thought by going away, literally leaving the state in which I had resided in all my life, would make the break-up easier for me, I was fooling myself, all I managed to do was run away from my problems.
Although I wish I could say that by returning to my hometown made things right again overnight, that is wayyyyyyyyyyyy far from the truth. In fact it took about 3 years upon my return to realize that true love isn't always what or whom you thought it could be.
I've spent the last year with a man that just amazes me more and more everyday. And the best thing about him is not what he can offer me financially or in a material sense, but what he gives to me emotionally and honestly. He is an open book and isn't afraid to let me see this side of him. He is very honest and I never have to doubt anything he says to me. And for the first time in a very long time, I feel apart of something really really special. I find comfort in his arms when were watching a movie, or just having a quick exchange of hello/goodbye on our different paths to or from work, he brought my smile back and I didn't even realize that I had kept it from showing in the first place.

Awesome! Congratulations to you. I think you can count yourself very lucky to have found what sounds like a really decent male (an all too rare commodity).

Amen to that...he-he, but like all flawed features with so called exuberating humanous... love does come and go...its not always about love but it has its bout with committment, love comes back around when the relationship is respected and nourished. To many people throw in the towel because the feelings are gone, well ya...that happens love takes work and time, it is a lifetime investement if that is indeed what one seeks for. Good tidings to your find and may it serve to be something two
people search a liftetime for.

Sherri

Thank you for the words of encouragement...it seems that we just fit perfect together now. Before it was alot of learning that I think we tried too hard, now that we've gone a step further on an emotional level, i truly look forward to the future that we are creating.