Well I just typed up a huge message, hit send and it didn't work, so I'm re-typing it all. I never thought I'd google "social forums" and post on the first one that came up, but I'm so angry/sad/confused that I rather tell my story to complete strangers than to people I know. That would be funny if she read this.

I met this girl last year. She is the former roommate of my buddy's girlfriend [note: they weren't very good roommates and the circumstances that brought us together are quite strange. Had this encounter never happened I am nearly sure that my buddy's gf and her former roommate would never speak again. Keep that in mind]. My buddy and his girlfriend both know how I feel about her.

When I first met her, she had come over with one of her friends. When she walked into the room, it felt as if my throat fell into my stomach, she just had this presence about her with the most beautiful eyes I have ever seen in my life. I was permanently smitten without even speaking to her. Throughout that first night, I made it quite clear I was interested in her, as I didn't even speak to her friend once. I sort of made an ass of myself whenever they left and figured I would never see her again.

Lo and behold, she came back to hang out a few times. This time alone, with no friend. After these next few meetings, it dawned on me just exactly how much we had in common. These similarities went deeper than just movies, music, tv, etc. It went down to spiritual and religious beliefs, and things of that sort. I never thought I would meet someone with the same beliefs as me (just because my beliefs are so unique--think new age hippie stuff), and at that point was all about her. I really haven't stopped thinking about her for the past week.

They say that opposites attract, but in this case the only thing opposite I have from her are reproductive organs. I really don't understand what I'm doing wrong here. I see all these douchebags with girls, but for why? For sex, obviously. Everyone wants sex, but I want so much more from her, and she would probably want so much more from me, and I'd be willing to give it to her. She's so worth it, I've never said that about any girl I liked before her. I really don't understand, isn't that what girls want? Someone who will stay in it for the long haul, who is caring, yet compatible, knows when to say the right things at the right time and is the aggressor when it comes to after-dark activities? It really hurts to be in this position, ready to give myself up to her with no hidden agenda. She really has no idea how lucky she could be. What am I doing wrong?

Sorry for the long message, but I had to get this one off my chest and I didn't care who it was to.