@delilahjed44, thank you for the support....
Unfortunately it's easier put in words than actually the truth of all that happened. For me too there is a child involved. So, yes, the difficult matters have been there, but now that I have my head on straight, well as straight as possible, it's gotten easier with time to move on and learn from the experience. I've discovered, through him surprisingly, that its easier to hate someone than to admit not knowing. As my grandmother once said to me, It's one thing to be alone, it's another being lonely. With the man in my life now, neither of those exist anymore, and for that I love waking up each morning next to him.