my first kiss.....i had these two girls over at my house and after playing halo for a while we decided to lay down on my bed. (it sounds more bad ass than it really is, trust me.) the two girls were best friends and one of them (the crazy insanely hot one ) keep whispering to the other one about how she really liked....something. it didn't take a rocket scientist to know she was talking about me, especially with the MASSIVE amount of flirting that had been taking place earlier. But i was extremely scared lol. Partly because she was extraordinarily sexy, partly because we had done this before a couple months earlier, and i messed up, and i didn't want a repeat of that, but mostly because i am completely fucked up emotionally (long story).

After 20 of the weirdest (and most fun) minuets of my life i finally gave in. So i grabbed a pillow so the other girl didn't watch and we kissed. That was the single greatest moment of my life, for some reason it just really meant a lot to me. Oh, i didn't mess up this time, so we made out for like 10 minuets and then later that night she got a call from her ex-boyfriend saying he wanted her back and she went back with him. The same fucking night. Who gives a fuck about my feelings, right? She didn't obviously.

God though, she didn't make it easy for me. Over then next 6 months she keep dropping little hints and saying certain things that made me think she might want me back.....but it didn't happen. And now I'm in love with the other girl who was on the bed in the beginning of this story. It's crazy how things work out.