In all honesty I agree with the opinions expressed by Rasczak. You have admitted that this is the second time you have gone through this emotional roller-coaster involving your ex and your current boyfriend. It sounds like you are not ready for a relationship at all and need to spend some time with yourself working out what you want out of life.

The truth is if you are happy with yourself and who you are then you wouldn't be having so many doubts about your relationships.