Any one who's pride is in perfection will struggle to reach that perfect image, often their whole lives. The sad thing is when it becomes so engulfing, so distorting, that it takes over their lives and nothing else matters. Bulimia and anorexia are good examples of this. I guess if being muscly and athletic were the only time you cared about at all.... then in some way death would be better then the shame on not achieving that, such as with his family... Still, thats pretty messed up. How ironic to do it with a weight machine pulley....