I know this woman. I've known her for more than nine years now. And as time has gone by we started having feelings for each other. Very strong feelings for my part, and every day they grow even stronger. But - Since we started out as very close friends, and she being the queen of beauty, in my eyes, I've always held back even that I feel the way I do. Late last year it became very clear to me that it will only be a matter of time before we take the next step and get involved more seriously in a relationship.

I've never told her about my feelings in a direct way. Only been there for her no matter what she did, no matter whom she chose to be with setting myself completely aside. Now you might just say that I abuse myself which I do not feel that I do. I just know, that the day will come where we get together. Now - Is not telling her about my true feelings a lie? No - I would be blind and foolish if I didn't already know that she knows all about my true feelings and the biggest mistake I can ever make is not being aware of that.

Unlike you I do talk a lot when I'm in her company. She does too. But still - I would be in serious trouble if I did not give her the credit of being able to think for herself. Not saying that you do so, but it seems to me that you are hurting yourself without any reason. Her feeling used by you are, in my experience the standard female reaction to rejection. Some women just don't know how to overcome being rejected by a man - The simple law of human nature. Don't take the blame, she will overcome being rejected and if she doesn't don't be hard on yourself, it's not your fault.